I don’t know whether that I am lonely or that I miss her or either that I miss the thought of being with someone that I adored or that would adore me . I am truthfully well that this is human nature and mixture of emotions and thoughts that come to my mind but part of my miserable disgusting feelings like depression or either my constant mood swings that throw me back into repetitive patterns of my personality that I dislike how I wish I could possibly be infactuated and in love with the person to feel the constant euphoria an euphoric feelings and naturally high to a point where its just chemicals that intoxicate my life but to feel a sense of loss and morning after the loss of that emotion and feeling that defines my very life and soul.. which I feel as if any human being can possibly relate to I don’t know whether that I am at a loss of knowing or either that I am looking out for hope to find this so call one or just old and tired and just impatient for that person to come along to feel like an unstoppable force against life all an in all I am trying my best in this world and that I am to tired to even figure out the answer to my thoughts that are repeating I love you good night
my heart is broken and I have learned to stop caring about peoples fake bullshit which is one main reason I never realy smile anymore or respond back to say I love you .. because I given so many chances yet they threw that away like it was nothing to chase some fake idealistic image that hey call a relationship and wondered what had happened when someone left them . all in all im latterly done with everyone . focusing so much on myself and my life right now
so I have been sick for the past three days it sucs balls I just hope I get better I have been doing nothing but sleeping feeling dizzy just made myself eat something since I rarelyhavent been eating much :/
My new sounds:
so followers went up to 111 wow im very happy and thankful for everyone following me I have been so busy working on improving my music on my mpc so if any of you been wondering what I have been up to that’s what I have been doing and trying to improve my self a bit more making plans hopefully they will come out soon and on that note I had a art gallery in Atlanta ask me if I could send my art pieces in so they could help me sell them and make money and display them some will be super cheap im not the type that charges thousand dollars for something small you cant put a price on art .. and on that note im currently talking to someone that is inspiring me :3 . I am just trying to do the best I can in this life so I have no regrets later in life .
I got drunk and high tonight to the point where I lit my armpit hairs on fire rofl shit was soo funny